1. Yesterday I stayed up until 12:00 finishing my homework, because I chose soccer over schoolwork, and then the next day teachers tell me I'm so responsible and do all my homework... (Oh the irony!!!)
2. Yesterday I had to chase my dog all over the neighborhood, I got so mad I started throwing pieces of frozen bread at him, when one of them smacked him in the face, I almost killed myself tripping over him, and then I tried to see if he was alright. Go figure...
3. Sometimes I wonder if I'm bipolar, it would be the only explanation for being moody and angry, and then bouncing all over the place the next class. Or it could just be that my phone got taken away and then I drank like 3 cans of Hawaiian Punch. (Either one...)
4. I can't stand my grandmother... The first few days, it's nice to have her around, and then after those first few days, I start wishing she would just leave, and stop pestering me.
5. We got a foozball table a few days ago, and since then every night I play a bit with my dad, who I think is the most like me in the family... A joker, and someone who doesn't mind pulling some pranks or jokes every now and then... (Of course when we play he beats me like 10-0, but hey it's the spirit of the game right???)
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
I Go To Church
every Sunday, and promptly space out...
Because my parents make me,
dozing off, even in the
uncomfortable wooden pews...
Pretending I'm somewhere else.
I sneeze, and everyone looks at
me very badly.... Hey, last time I
checked sneezing wasn't counted as
a sin anywhere... I fall into a robotic trance,
mumbling along with everyone else,
doing what everyone else does..
I think I've read the pamphlet a million times,
and counted to 500 and backwards, and I'm still bored...
Just when I think I'm about to scream, everyone gets up and starts
leaving, and I do the same, along with everyone else..
ALELUYA...
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
The Fiend In The Night
Moon glinting through the shutters,
they sway softly in the midnight wind...
I gathered up my folders, sweeping them
into my case, my eyes droop, and through my half-closed
eyes, it looks like a cascade of color...
Shutting the lights, the only ones still
on in the entire station... Swiftly passing
through the hallways, the silence eerie and ghostly.
That was when the loud tapping and banging ensued...
Echoing, echoing in the silence, like the butcher's meat cleaver
on the block, shattering the eerie quiet...
I catiously edged around the corner, and at once grimaced and relaxed,
when I saw a wild-looking woman at the door. The look on her face,
allowed me to surmise that the night just got longer.
I poured another cup of coffee and offered it to her,
she shook her head, so I took it for myself.
I gingerly held the steaming cup in
my cold hands, and drank the coffee,
the dark liquid pouring down like
the night coming in at dusk.
The heady scent of it, inflaming my senses,
keeping me awake... I once again endeavored to
understand what this witness was saying,
but her abrasive nature was leaving a dusty and dehydrated taste in my mouth...
She had heard a noise, like a unearthly inhuman shriek, like Death's shriek of
victory as it caught another person... And then a shuffling and creaking sound,
continuing even after she was leaving...
I succumbed to the women's wishes,
and ushered her out. As I left the quiet and
the darkness was oppressing...
I decided that if this woman was right,
it wouldn't do to show up in my
noisy old car, with it's gears clanking and engine groaning,
to the house of a man who was possibly a killer...
I made a quick inventory of my belongings,
deciding which I could afford to carry, and which could stay in the car.
In the end, I just took my firearm, and detective badge...
I tried simulating how I would go about confronting the
suspect, as I set out toward the location the woman,
had told me... I knew the place, a few blocks down. More than enough
time for me to figure something out. I hoped this was actaully worth it, because
I was cold, hungry, and tired...
I rubbed my hands, my breath frosting out in front of me,
and walked off into the darkness.
The door was of a mahogany finish,
with a large brass knocker. The design: a lion
roaring, with the actual ring in it's gaping jaws.
The door was answered by a young man,
clad in only a dark bathrobe.
I took a tour of his abode, my search meticulous, and
careful, far from cursory...
There was an odd manner about the chap.
and I derived something must be wrong...
However until I could corroborate my witness's story,
I couldn't allow my opinions to take root. That was when
he led me into the old man's chamber, who was supposedly away
on a trip whose existence I was starting to doubt.
He pulled up some chairs, and we chatted
about nonsense, and plesantries,
but we both felt the electrifying tension
in the room, both of us watching each other's
reactions to the senseless words we uttered,
both of us staring at each other, the stare of a killer, meeting
my smiling face, the facial expression carefully crafted to conceal
the hardness beneath...
my smiling face, the facial expression carefully crafted to conceal
the hardness beneath...
But gradually his careful countenance started to slip,
his grip on sanity started to slip... I could see the madness
and rage in his eyes, until with a cry, like the cry of a wounded cat,
he flung his chair across the room
and tore up the floarboards with his bare hands,
he flung his chair across the room
and tore up the floarboards with his bare hands,
and his dark deed was unveiled. The gruesome body of the old
man, frozen in it's death throes, rigid and cold...
I slammed him against the wall, and cuffed him, meanwhile
the blood from his savaged hands, the skin torn while ripping up the floorboards
drummed on the floor, with a slow relentless ticking...
This a story modeled after Edgar Allan Poe's "The Telltale Heart",
portrayed from the detective's point of view...
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Confession Tuesday
I know a lot of people who like dogs. As a little kid(7 years old), I used to walk over to some stables in Coronado. Every weekend, and pass the time with the dogs there (including Labradors, Great Danes, Bulldogs, and Dalmations... I have to confess that at that time I probably liked dogs more than people. To me it seemed simpler being with them, as I was a hyper little kid, and I had finally found some animals that matched my energy level. They didn't nag me, like everyone else at the time. They were easy to get along with, and never got tired, or decided they didn't wasnt to keep playing like my much exasperated brothers, or my sister. I 've been told I had an amzing amount of empathy for those animals, befriending them almost instantly, even when I was about five. Those days, laying on the ground, listening to the neigh of horses, and the pant of dogs, were an integral part of my childhood..
Monday, August 23, 2010
Memoir Monday
My sister comes and asks me "Do you want to play tennis??? I'm bored..." I answer "Yes" without thinking... This fact makes me pause and stop... There was a time,
not too long ago... Where I would have declined,
just as fast as I accepted just now... I would have preferred
the company of computer and videogames, to
playing sports with my sister...
I couldn't really place when the change came about...
It was gradual, and yet quick at the same time...
As I walked out the door, with my tennis racket,
I think of how it happened... It was like a gradual
loss of interest, which happened without reason...
One day, I just didn't want to play
games anymore... It might have been thanks to
soccer nights with my dad during the vacation,
the bright bubbles in a sea of boredom, day after day of
construction work, alleviated by these nights where I could
kick loose... It helped me see things differently,
and suddenly the TV didn't have the same irresistible appeal,
and I didn't lose myself in games anymore, and started to
waste less time on them...
Thursday, August 12, 2010
This Year.....
Sad little piles,
of clothes thrown,
on the floor. My
backpack upended,
on my bed, its bowels strewn,
on the bed. Possesions of mine,
useful, and useless thrown indiscriminately,
around.
This year I hope to be more organized...
I turn my backpack upside down,
shaking it from side to side,
and smacking it against the wall,
as if that would somehow,
make my homework appear.
I throw random objects around the room,
not caring about their value. I throw my backpack
against the wall, not caring my phone is in there.
I pound my closet door, thrying to vent,
my anger. Shake my hand, ignore the sting of pain
I rage and curse, not caring thats its my fault,
that I lost every single piece of my homework.
Not even wondering at the unreasoning anger I
feel.
This year I hope to be a calmer person...
I manuever the forklift around
construction areas so messy
they put my room to shame.
The wind blows a cloud of dust,
and the smell of stale sweat
into my face, but I ignore it
focusing on the task at hand.
Right now the task is to move
pallets carrying steel pieces.
In the next hour I might be
shoveling dirt, or breaking
concrete. It doesn't matter...
Its the fact that I make my own money,
the freedom of it, that makes it worthwhile
This year I hope to be a more independent.
My eyelids droop with fatigue,
slowly closing as if
a heavy weight bears down on them.
I curse myself for not doing my work
as soon as I got home.
As usual I ended working till twelve.
My will keeps me awake,
so that I can finish my homework,
before I drop off to sleep.
The droning hum of the crickets,
and the hooting cry of an owl,
ring through the night.
The night sounds produce a hypnotic effect,
everything else drowned out, a lullaby at midnight.
My head bangs into my keyboard,
and I start as a song starts to blare
out. I squint at my screen, and am
amazed to see
that while I was
zoned out, I finished my work.
I drop into a bed with a book,
but before I even touch the book,
I'm out cold.
This year I hope to be more responsible...
My mind slowly wanders as I stand on the football court.
There was not a lot going on, and I idly daydreamt.
A warning rent like the air like a thunderbolt.
Next thing I knew, a player
from the other team,
a younger-looking man, barreled into me.
I sailed sideways and landed hard,
I skidded on the floor, trying not to
cry out as the skin on my back and
legs shredded and was scraped off.
I got up with a grimace,
feeling like someone set my nerves
on fire. I hobbled over to the goal,
to defend, cautiously watching out for any other
crazy people.
This year I hope to be a more attentive and aware person....
of clothes thrown,
on the floor. My
backpack upended,
on my bed, its bowels strewn,
on the bed. Possesions of mine,
useful, and useless thrown indiscriminately,
around.
This year I hope to be more organized...
I turn my backpack upside down,
shaking it from side to side,
and smacking it against the wall,
as if that would somehow,
make my homework appear.
I throw random objects around the room,
not caring about their value. I throw my backpack
against the wall, not caring my phone is in there.
I pound my closet door, thrying to vent,
my anger. Shake my hand, ignore the sting of pain
I rage and curse, not caring thats its my fault,
that I lost every single piece of my homework.
Not even wondering at the unreasoning anger I
feel.
This year I hope to be a calmer person...
I manuever the forklift around
construction areas so messy
they put my room to shame.
The wind blows a cloud of dust,
and the smell of stale sweat
into my face, but I ignore it
focusing on the task at hand.
Right now the task is to move
pallets carrying steel pieces.
In the next hour I might be
shoveling dirt, or breaking
concrete. It doesn't matter...
Its the fact that I make my own money,
the freedom of it, that makes it worthwhile
This year I hope to be a more independent.
My eyelids droop with fatigue,
slowly closing as if
a heavy weight bears down on them.
I curse myself for not doing my work
as soon as I got home.
As usual I ended working till twelve.
My will keeps me awake,
so that I can finish my homework,
before I drop off to sleep.
The droning hum of the crickets,
and the hooting cry of an owl,
ring through the night.
The night sounds produce a hypnotic effect,
everything else drowned out, a lullaby at midnight.
My head bangs into my keyboard,
and I start as a song starts to blare
out. I squint at my screen, and am
amazed to see
that while I was
zoned out, I finished my work.
I drop into a bed with a book,
but before I even touch the book,
I'm out cold.
This year I hope to be more responsible...
My mind slowly wanders as I stand on the football court.
There was not a lot going on, and I idly daydreamt.
A warning rent like the air like a thunderbolt.
Next thing I knew, a player
from the other team,
a younger-looking man, barreled into me.
I sailed sideways and landed hard,
I skidded on the floor, trying not to
cry out as the skin on my back and
legs shredded and was scraped off.
I got up with a grimace,
feeling like someone set my nerves
on fire. I hobbled over to the goal,
to defend, cautiously watching out for any other
crazy people.
This year I hope to be a more attentive and aware person....
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